Time to be honest.

So as most of you will know I recently spent 11 weeks in a psychiatric hospital. Almost all of you will not know why, other than what I've shared on here. 

Truth is I've been diagnosed as having a schizophrenic type condition. I know that's a scary word but to me it's a relief. I am not one to hide or be embarrassed by my conditions. Any questions no matter how small comment on this or send me a message using the box on the right!

Freedom!

I am finally free, having been discharged today. I'm having lots of community support but after eleven and a half weeks I am no longer a hospital inpatient. Eleven weeks, three hospitals, 7.5 weeks in intensive care, two comas, ten different medications and lots of support later and I'm hoping to stay out of hospital for good! I want to thank everyone who has contacted me using the little form to the right and sent messages of support it means a lot. I'll keep the updates coming as I adjust to life outside of a locked ward!

Home for a while

So I am home until Monday. Currently lounging in my bed and loving it. Should be discharged next week. 

Where do I start?

So things are going oky here. I am still in hospital, ten weeks today! Am now in my 4th hospital and hoping this one will be my last, as I am inching closer towards coming home. Am out of intensive care and now only a 20min drive from home!!!! Should be out of here very soon! Keep everything crossed. Will update again next week or when I'm home, which ever is sooner!

They've fixed me.......I wish

These posts are getting harder to write as I'm drugged up on lots of different meds and the new ones make focusing hard. 

Managed to avoid being restrained last night which is progress. 

Still sleeping on a plastic mattress with no sheets. Annoying!

Tried to ligature without success the night before last. 

We've just had the compulsory morning meeting and quiz which I won again! 

Have a few manic people in so it's super loud so I'm hiding away in my room. Only get my phone for 30 mins twice a day so can't write blog posts like I'd hope to. Keeping track and will blog properly one home! 

Love and craziness to you all. X

Profound Vs Jaffa cakes

Now my blog is gaining twitterer support I feel I should be writing profound or poetic statements. Rather as I sit here with my 30mins of phone allowance, I binging on my beloved Jaffa cake. I've avoided all restraints and injections but still my room has anything in but myself a bad, rip proof bedding and a tube of Jaffa cakes. Tomorrow may be more interesting for you yet more distressing for me. We will see!

Slow start to the day

Morning meeting at 9.30am. A chance for us to all sit together and talk about shop runs and eat food. Seems to go on forever with manic patients not shutting up.
Then it's the morning quiz which I won yesterday. Today we're in teams, girls vs boys and we kick their ass, as it should be. I'm now using my precious 30 mins on my mobile to update. Maybe no one will notice. Maybe I'll just become so withdrawn I'm invisable. Oh no, here they come. Gotta go!
Remember I'm just like you all. And you're only one step from being in my position #psychpatientsarenotscary